I'm focusing on the little things in order to accomplish the big things.
Most of you know I had stage 3A breast cancer... I had a big frickin' checklist to work on. 26 months later, now that is, I'm checking off the last of my surgeries. "we can only hope to rebuild her". I'm built, more like stacked if you know what I mean ;)
Once again, I underestimated how surgery kicks me in the ass. How it steals my vision, robs me of energy, makes me tear at unexpected turns, and tethers me from being the mom I want to be. Quite frankly it's harsh. It's been harsh all along...
But somehow I forget, like one forgets that giving birth or having a newborn is utterly difficult...
I tell myself that this one will be 'easy' because how could it actually be MORE difficult than 6 months of chemo, bi-lateral mastectomy, etc. [ETC....]
My body isn't as strong as she was before, I reckon I'm still a bit angry at her for turning on me. And yet I'm thankful she has pulled me through.
Through my tears, as I type, I'm not looking for your cheers, your empathy... I'm merely letting you in. Into my reality.
Don't underestimate NORMAL...
Sometimes the little things are far more important than the BIG things...
Enjoy the journey...
Step over the piles of randomness in order to welcome someone into your home.
Remember it's People over Perfection.
I'm taking my time to focus on the lil' things... so that I can prep myself for the big things.
Cheers, Krista
~my personal blog Putting on My Big Girl Panties
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