krista colvin's [putting on my big girl panties + kicking breast cancer in the ass]

the glasses help

July 29th, 2010 week 22- end of month 5 

  

Thought I'd just put it out there... no lashes, brows gone, skin's still lookin' good, hair is thin, thin, thin but I still have 'enough' to poke out of my hat and fake some people out. In the pic I'm sporting a bandanna type of thing that I like to wear around the house + sometimes out in public but I think it makes me look like I have cancer...and gives me a hippy-chic boho look of which I appreciate on others but not so much on me ;) [hence the pearl earings to balance things out]

 

I thought I would dread the no eyelash, brow thing. I'm surprisingly ok with it. I think I look like I have no makeup on or just woke up. Typically in the summer I don't wear makeup so it's not much of a stretch. I have opted [on some days] to draw in some brows and add eyeliner to define my eyes. I'm not wanting to fuss with fake lashes. It just seems like it will be a pain and who really cares. I think just about everyone in my life knows I have cancer so I'm not pulling the wool over anyone's eyes. The brow makeup was totally new to me. I have, ok had, great brows.[In junior high my mom rubbed my brows and asked me if I put anything in them. I thought 'what the hell is she doing and why would anyone put anything in their brows'.] #callmebrookeshields  Now that I take a moment to study everyone's eye brows I realize I'm not alone in the no-brow club.

 

What I don't like is how I look when I take my hat or bandanna off + see it in combo with my lack of hair. In fact I'm very aware of it in public. When my head gets hot + sweaty I may excuse myself to the restroom and 'air out' for a moment then put my hat back on before returning to the outside world. See... this is what I'm talking about. #eek #notmybestlook

 

There I did it, I came clean with my current look. This is why I like to wear a hat!

On the bright side... I am thankful it's summer. My skin has a bit of color deeming me 'healthy looking'. My sunglasses hide my eyes [brows + all] and my glasses continue to define my face and somewhat diminish the effects of chemo. #whenbadeyesightcomesinhandy #theglasseshelp

 

 

 

 

In today's paper...

On Saturday night my husband + neighbors headed downtown to the Camas Days Beer + Wine Garden. It's an annual event where you run into at least a dozen or so people that you have crossed paths with. One of those was a mom from my children's school. She asked her husband if he was able to name the gals around the table, I being one of them. He began going around the table and didn't say names but instead stated how he knew us. Immediately I thought "oh shit, he's going to come to me and not know what to say- since he really know's me as  "the cancer chick"... instead he said "she's been in the paper four times". #PHEW

Yes I am the girl the local paper is following. They are doing a series about coping with cancer. #ihavecancer  Today The Columbian ran a new article titled "Combating Cancer is a Family Affair".   [for the full story click here ]

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being still

Last week I took the kids and their friends to see the new Karate Kid. About 80 dollars into the movie [4 kids, popcorn, soda, candy] I had a moment. The new Mr. Miyagi- Mr. Hon said something that made the 80 bucks worth it...

"Being still and doing nothing are two different things"

Why thank you old wise one. I needed to hear that. I've been struggling with the whole 'just being' thing. By nature I'm a doer so being still isn't my cup of tea. However I am getting much better at it. I'm able to sit and ponder- as in ponder about something other than my cancer. I'm able to rest and not feel like I'm being lazy. I'm learning that being still is a tool to kicking cancer in the ass. #hiYAHtakethatcancercells