Yesterday I had my round 2 chemo number 2... which today has friends and family asking "how are you feeling?". I feel flat... like a bottle of pop without any fizz.
It's odd for me to not have the oompah, the sass, the fizz. I don't like it. I feel like a BIG piece of my personality is missing. Have you ever met with a coach or done the activity where you brainstorm what makes you/your business unique from others? All those items on my list are currently missing.
I've had two of girlfriends/neighbors want my input on projects they are working on. Usually I'd chomp at the bit to give my 2cents, my brain would be going so quickly I'd have to spit out my thoughts so I wouldn't lose them. Now though I've warned them that my I'm not bringing my "A" game. My sentences are not beginning with "you should". I'm not solution minded. I'm a bit flat.
I miss this side of myself. In fact I'm a bit bored without it. I'm sure it's just a chemo side affect that will render itself old and forgotten in a few months. Because to me flat and fizzless is a crappy side affect.
p.s. WOW this is the 20th week I've been dealing with cancer. Also duly noted that I've had 14 chemo treatments with 2 more to go. #who'scounting
