Yesterday morning I was feeling all 'betty-beats-cancer'. I felt great. I talked with Janice, my AM Northwest producer, proclaimed "how can i have cancer, i don't feel like i have cancer'. #pureutterdenial
We chatted about upcoming segments and planned for the next 3 months, leaving summer as 'the unknown'. Unknown because it' summer and the kids are home + unknown because I'm sure by then I'll have tapped out all my neighbors to watch the kidlets, and unknown because I may look + feel like shit and not sure I want to be on live tv.
I also had a follow up appt. w/ Dr. Kilway, my surgeon, to look at the Power Port incision to see if the incision was healing properly. #whyYESbetty-beats-cancerITwasLOOKINGswell
I did some work, I ate some cookies that my neighbors Bob + Dee made me, well us, got the mail, opened the mail, put on my new necklace from Jeri Dansky (definitely more on this later) and took the kidlets to see Diary of a Wimpy Kid. See NORMAL mom stuff. Betty-beats-cancer-BS-everyday-stuff. #withgiftsbecausewhenyougetcancerpeoplesendyoufabulousthings #bonus
Then during the movies while I was picking popcorn pieces out of my bossom #babygotbust my phone was vibrating. Of course I ALWAYS check my phone and saw 3 calls- 2 being doctor numbers. OY.
I stepped outside the theater- cuz my kids are old enough now to do that... and listened to the radiologist say that the "stealth" biopsy from friday was postive. #BAMPOWZAP you'd think I was hearing I had cancer or something. So here I am in the dark empty theater hallway watching the guy put up a sign saying I can't use the bathroom because he's cleaning it... clean the hallway buddy- it's damn dreary while listening to medical voicemails. Diary of a mom.
This isn't bad news per say. I mean I already have cancer in that breast. It's the same kind of cancer "invasive ductal" but it's in a different quadrant. We may lump our breast into one big boobalicious mound, but science breaks it up into zones or quads. This means another part of my boob is trying to kill me. Go figure. Betty-beats-cancer has a fucking sister. Well she's a little bitch. She's a 'popcorn kernel' and that's really no match for the dragon-queen tumor weighing in at peach pit size (i think... i need to go get my peach pit-yes i have one stashed away...another story obviously)
That kernel may be the game changer. As in lumpectomy v. mastectomy. I'll chat with my oncologist as she's my go-to-gal for this journey. I need more info. AND I'm not sure why I'm so down about this news. I had already 'planned' on the mastectomy from about week 1 on... but then I got cocky. Figured this breast cancer thing was going to be a breeze, a blip. Didn't quite plan on this little bump feeling so big. I always say 'it's the lil' things that drive us crazy'. That if the little things are under control we can tackle the big ones. #Ihaveanentireblogaboutthat #theshebang
So... If you'd like to see how my day panned out play by play. I'm on TWITTER. I "tweet" lil' moments. I cut + pasted them here for you to see how my day went.
ps. don't be scared of twitter... it's just like passing notes in class.
HERE are my TWEETS starting from the waiting room:
ps. when you see an @ that means I am sending a tweet/note to that person. On twitter I am @kristacolvin. You can visit my page here: www.twitter.com/kristacolvin
Sipping on a hazelnut latte while I wait to see my surgeon for a post op appt. (power port for iv)
Still sipping on hazelnut latte but now sportin' cloth gown open in front #notashotasitsounds
Appt done... Went well- off to knock out Twitter party work for organize.com & get kidlets #falalalalifegoeson
off to the movies with the kidlets... because i'm a mom and i have to. #naptime#popcorn
love @jeridansky@allisonstrine http://tweetphoto.com/16354318 http://tweetphoto.com/16354359
@hchybinski wimpy kid!
Damn. As I thought the stealth spot is also cancerous & located in a different quadrant of my breast #feistygirlsaretryingrealhardtokillme
@bruinlab same kind different quad...
First bath since I found "the lump"... but took this soak with my daughter #talkedaboutthelump #peachseed
The other day I did a twistory search... Needed to remind myself of how I tweeted before I got all cancerie... Or is it cancery ;)
Going to get kick my ass kicked in the am by my trainer then kick some cancer ass at chemo in the afternoon. #morescaredofworkoutthanchemo
@KathieLB thanks chica... Just feeling a lil Debbie downerish tonight... I think a cookie may help me snap out of it ;)
@bruinlab you'd think so but I haven't chatted w my oncologist yet- just radiologist #whoknows
@clementinenw I was thrilled to see excellent- didn't see chubby written anywhere! ;)
More later... thanks for being my 'ear', my friend, my chicaritas.
